Zico Bernardinho

Look at him:)
he's old!
but then he plays like he's still 17.
LEGEND!


hahaha!
so thursday fishing.
exciting yet boring.
excited to fish!
bored cos no fish!
LOL!
raymond kept fishing the tree though?
( his line keeps getting stuck with the tree )
They managed a few crabs.
but thats about i know?

Friday was zzzzzzzzz!
sleep and sleep.
woke up for soccer.
still ZZZZ!
ahhahaha!

Saturday was spent at home too.
(:
Raymond came over and got thrashed 6-0 by me.
hahahahhaa!
then we rock band, Raymond, Biswas, Justin, Jeremy.
(:
whoohooo!
damn fun!
hahahahahhahahah!
after that we went causeway point for dinner.
Jos, Lex and Jo came to join us.
after that we went to Biswas house for my sisters keeper.
Damn emo show.
between the scenes we laugh a little though.
HAHAHA!

Sunday was tiring.
superb.
had a match in the evening.
so got home, sleep liao.
hhahahaha!
then woke up 5plus met jeremy, go for the match.
HAHAHA!
did well for it.
all 4 goals have a bit of me in it.
LOL!

All in all, it sucks!
what a horrible long weekend.
:(

Been haveing dreams about pokemon man!
pikachu!
pika?
pika pi!
LOL!
at least it's a happy dream(:

morning is crazy.
damn waste time please!
but ok lah!
laughing alot.
going to ORD mah!
what off all?
where got time?
LOL!

today fishing!
song bo!
i have no idea how to fish!
no idea!
hahaha!
but seems that the rest are experts.
so yea?
HAHA!
i hope she goes though.
Totally Missed.
right!





Where has he gone to?
i wonder....

Another retarded day of MONOPOLY DEAL.
keep trying to find new ways or tactics to win.
Play without money.
Play without Property.
Been there done that!
LOL!

Danker tells me she pierced her tongue.
hmmm, not exactly a big fan of piercings.
furthermore,
she pierced herself.
hope it doesn't get infected.
*frowns*

Alicia has not get back to me about the tickets.
Have been wondering whether she'll really pass me them.
:(
sorry girl!

So yesterday, i went to IMM to look for a SUPER SOAKER!
i want a SUPER SOAKER!
Can someone tell me where to get it?
OMG!
HAHAHAHHA!
I'm a small boy sure!
but it's really fun.
i wanna bring it for the chalet.
hopefully nothing changes.
HA!

So Christmas is coming...
and what have i done?
instead of building relationships this year..
i have been filtering all my other friends whom i deem as *forget it kind*
why waste so much effort trying to convince them that there ares till people around who cares?
HA!
but i feel i have been doing the wrong thing almost in everything.
i get angry easily these few times.
tempers been sky high.
there's not exactly someone to curb it for me now.

but my thoughts for Christmas is still the same!
GIVE AND YOU WILL RECEIVE!

Yesterday, i went sheeeeeeeeeeshhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaa with Raymond, Anthony, Desmond, Gabriel....
hahhahaha!
We played Monopoly deal.
SNORES!
damn bad.
They didnt want to let me win..
so they started dumping all the properties i started to put out!
:(

Oh well,
i did stuff to prolong their agony too(:
sama sama

HA!

another long day in camp.
boring boring.
later is ZW's house for rockband.
i brought my guitar to camp.
LOL.
imagine the face of the guy checking my bag!
PRICELESS MAN!

Things i wish for christmas:

1. i-PHONE
2. New Shoes
3. My Long Awaited Red Electric Guitar
4. a new Blazer
5. A Makeover for my room


so far it's this way.
hahahaha!
cant wait for friday.
COUSINS OUTING!
HA!
(:

why is it the hell week?
lets see.

MONDAY!
got toot! by almost everyone higher ranking then me.
but it's ok.
it's jus work.
then during the afternoon of tuesday.
someone msged me.
confronted.
i was being a gentleman already.
i know this aint some bryan kid.
but well...

if u use ya friends to lie and steal and i dunno what...
i doubt even you are anything better,
but blame me for having such a heart.
wont take it into my heart.
i dun blame you.
cos it was my fault.
when shit happens,
the guys always get it.

i went to the ZOO sometime back.
ha! got pictures lah.
will post it once i get it from jeremy.
uhhuh!

then STEFFY has been bombarding my HP with msges.
puddings and jelly.
she made but none ever came to me.
evil!

CNY coming.
GONG XI FA CAI!
ha!
wonder what should i wear.
darn!

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
life sucks!
hope things changes somewhere overseas!

they say new year new hope.
should i differ?
ha!

so u are still being cold.
ok lo.
guess it doesnt matter if i try to be different.
try to change.
u got so many suitors ard.
having me aint that different,

what should i say?
1. i dared to hold ya hands.
2. i dared to sneak kisses in between.
3. i dared to show my affections
4. i'm an idiot.

hahahahaha!

new year.
9th or 10th.
results.
song bo!
hahaha!

going for soccer ltr.
then dinner?
then back to camp on monday.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

QUEEN btr miss me already,
pisses!
lol.


SO I SAW A DAMN BORING POST!

i saw many pencils on my desk.
so i rearranged them and put them in my drawer,

END OF POST!

@#!!#^^$^$*%^@$%!$#

funny lah!
ahahhahaha!

nicolezhenghuixing says:
Hello Baby!

[šāįŃţ þėŕńĀŕĎ ćĥŖĭŠţõPħĖŕ ]                                                                                      MARTIAN-ese ! says:
uh! wrong person... ha!

nicolezhenghuixing says:
i heard from kit u were particularly annoyed when i said we were together?

[šāįŃţ þėŕńĀŕĎ ćĥŖĭŠţõPħĖŕ ]                                                                                      MARTIAN-ese ! says:
whao! hold on there.
who the hell did you tell all these things too?
snores!

nicolezhenghuixing says:
not many?

[šāįŃţ þėŕńĀŕĎ ćĥŖĭŠţõPħĖŕ ]                                                                                      MARTIAN-ese ! says:
SIAN!

nicolezhenghuixing says:
sorry lar! how i wish right?

[šāįŃţ þėŕńĀŕĎ ćĥŖĭŠţõPħĖŕ ]                                                                                      MARTIAN-ese ! says:
wth do you like abt me?
i smoke.. i have crazy moods.. i'm fat:(

nicolezhenghuixing says:
FAT? haha! you're ok lah. haf a hot bod also useless.
i like the confidence. it makes me feel good ard you.
i see the good in ppl. who cares abt the bad ones?

[šāįŃţ þėŕńĀŕĎ ćĥŖĭŠţõPħĖŕ ]                                                                                      MARTIAN-ese ! says:
me!


at this point of time, the convo was getting nowhere.
perhaps i'm always so affected by what ppl say.
perhaps.
like for what rachel say..
' everyone seems to be attached to you. why must they be so f-ing jealous '
JEALOUSY!
it's always happening.
in church.
camp.
work.
pui!

when we get jealous of someone,
we sprout nonsense abt her/him.
simple right?
destroy the reputation.
destroy the person.

how could be a flirt when i dun even dare to say YOU're DAMN DAO to ARIEL?
how can i be a role model and ask ppl dun smoke when i myself do?
STUPID LAH ME!

as though things i hear from ppl are all true.
what father said.
sian right?
emo!
sucks!

CHRISTMAS!
waiting now.
i wanna hold her tight.
i wish i wish.
cos i still miss her.

but for the good of everyone.
and i believed.
she found her someone.
like i said.
i'm JeaLOUS!
but i'm still human!

we were testing out some bluetooth msging thingy. she was just across me. Presenting NICOLEY(:


jamienicolezhenghuixing says:
i miss you.

bernardchristopherzicochoozheping says:
huh? siao!

jamienicolezhenghuixing says:
really. i need the laughter back! haiz.

bernardchristopherzicochoozheping says:
hello nicole(:
wassup?

jamienicolezhenghuixing says:
dont act lar! quick what comes after i miss you? hee!

bernardchristopherzicochoozheping says:
i miss you too? i think. what the hell! nth better to do ah?

jamienicolezhenghuixing says:
nothing to do lar. i'm sitting across you, i cant see you. or speak to you. and all you do is just smile, and noticing people around you.
why not look at me for a change?

bernardchristopherzicochoozheping says:
hmmm, there are people in front of me. i cant see you! smiling is good right?



not sure exactly why!
going out with her seems scary.
i mean...
she's rich!
she's pretty!
she's a OUT OF THIS WORLD girl.

' she's way outta ya league dude! '
the thought ran thru my head.


PLAIN SIMPLE!
she misses me.
i do not.
she jus change a car,
i have no car.
she's willing to take train rides with me to accomapny me home.
i know she suffers when she go home.

i dun deserve this.
but how do i tell you?

song bo!
lol.
blackjack!
won 18!
hee!

18 december - date with GLENDA. twilight too. dinner maybe. see how(:

since 1st nov. smokefree!

and sian lah.
some ppl are liars.
though i jus keep quiet.
they think i naive.
boo hoo!
i'm sure they know who they are.

pay pay pay day,
who wants a treat?
(:

ladies, gents,
I FINALLY AM NO LONGER BAI BAN!
ranked up
ranked up
as of 011208.

ha!

so ytd was damn funny.
rehearsal anyhow.
salute anyhow.
then kenna from OM.

in the end we marched all well.
fit enuff to do a NDP please!
so proud horz?
lol.

collected my winnings from SG pool ytd too.
close to 1k.
bad news is that
they didnt have enuff 100bills or 50dollars bills or ten dollars bills.
a few persons in front of me, someone collect 4k of winings i think.
then they gave me alot of 2dollars note.
damn sway.
adding to it.
deposit machine doesnt accept $2notes!

TOOT!

i dedicate the 1st of DECEMBER to ORANGI!
she kept me company for the whole of the day.
while i tried on shoes. her msges came.
while i did my dim sum buffet.
she challenged me with sushi.
even she came home 40mins b4 me. and slept b4 me.
WTH!

WA.
claire claire claire.
see see see.
update lo. i think?

LEAVE FORECAST -  26th dec, 29th, 30th, 31st dec

i'm on leave these few days.
so pls feel free to invite me for parties, movies.
dates and all are welcomed.

ya ya ya!

when you plunged into the music world.
u start writing ya feelings in songs.
u start using music to express yourself.

when someone uses music to express,
he's creative yet in denial.

BINGO!
i'm weird.


back to my days.
sucks?
where's everyone?
lol.
ended talking to MARCUS abt alot of rubbish.

ARMY SUCKS!
can anyone hear me?

i'm not smokin already.
though i'm still not eating meat.
amazing i amde it till now.
guess i'm going to go further man.
WHOO!

no reason for being vege eater now.
jus made sure i ahve my views cleared.
i'm happy.
and i live off smiles.
KEEP ON SMILING!

so i say,
ok lah.
weeks have passed rather quickly.
being closed to a workaholic now.
thats bad for me health.
skipping meals still.
FUCK!

coming home at 11pm for 2days a week,
staying in 2days a week.
not going st anthonys on a sunday exceot impt.
try to refrain from meat as long as she ignores me.
haiz.
how now brown cow?

i dun eat meat now.
those that bring me out beware.
lol.

happy boys and happy girls to sing.
haha!
ok was really good.
woke up pretty late.
went to meet bao ling(:
a sergeant in uniform and a sergeant in civilian clothes are two different people.
she looks damn good lah!

i'm going underground tmr.
if i tell you, i have to kill you.
i kinda love what i'm doing now.
though the tempers are really scary:(

everyday has been a party
cos i owe everyone breakfast for being late three times.
AHHAHAA!
horrible i know.
terrible i know.
hahaha!
PARTY!

so been ard nicolette and vanessa plenty.
crazy people.
keep saying i'm retarded.
but i'm not.
i'm jus normal.
hahaha!
furthermore, we all stay nearby.
so it kinda rock(:
hahahaha~!

cycle here, cycle there.

how i wish i can do more.
the tots of you dun disappear,
the memories linger on with hurt.
but damn, i should go for mass soon.
how do i repay gods love for me?

these few weeks super horrible lah.
lol.
ok i did went ont he papers.
then kat and all were msging me..
' omg is it you i see? '
apparently i'm fat!
lol.
but i didnt lose my personality.

went brandons party.
HAPPY BDAE.
alot of girls than guys lah.
BRAN's hot mah?
lol.
so i met nikki ( whoooo! hot stuff! )
she wore my hat almost the whole party.
collios lah.
then mel..
who cant shut up..
but guess cos she's like that?
lol.
i forget the rest of thier names.
as usual..
VENGA ME ROCKS.
hahaha!

so i'm going off.. but only awhile bah.
oh wells..
hope you're happier ignoring me this way..
cos you always do feel better makeing me sad...

2kg lost.. bet it's the depression..
least i'm off the pills and smoke for a little while..
hahaha!

ANDREA YOU ROCK MY WORLD.

fireworks were awesome man..
alot of hard work.
i'm gonna marry my work.
so i can forget everyhting.
which is actually good in someway.

she doesnt reply.
but i cant say much.
as much as i wanna say soemthing.
i'll do it wrongly.
it is right to believe u have have someone else.

14days off.
decided to keep it to visit leslie.
wait for hoimt o come online then tell him.
end of year mayb(:
hahahaha!

so did audits and so on.
boring stuff.
made mistakes.
got f-ed alot.
part of life.

2 words for LIFE -  it goes on.

why the heck does this always happen?
when i try to be truthful i get scolded for it.
you mean i have to lie abt everything else?
you mean i have to keep quiet abt it?
what the heck do you want me to do?
i mean...

so i said my sister didnt like you.
which happens..
as she almost doesnt like everyone, girls, ard me.
yes i get cheated easily.
yes i believe whatever ppl say.
naive you might say.
why react this way to me?
what the heck did i do to you?

i get scolded for burning my hands cos i was still holding on to the wires when they switch it on?
i came home and you give me attitude?
and always soemthing something something.
and i'm supposed to take it right?
and when everything seems to boil down, you always say your busy.

IT'S JUST A FCUKING CALL!
ONE FCUKING MSG.
ONE SIMPLE HELLO!

like what i told von,
bad influence.
haiz.
i dun deserve this.
i'm typin all this while whincing in pain.
thts great.
i need to vent this frustration.
frustration of my job.
of this clear liablilty in my head.

my bdae's coming.
fcuk it lah.
and i still get a day off for it.
rather work my ass off.
can somebody please rescue me from this shit.
somebody.
you.

my units quite fun ya?
boss makes lame jokes that you haveto laugh.
if not he will be angry.
hahaha!

i think jennys into me.
she jumped to my rescue ytd after i called her.
how sweet right?
like she could jus say too bad.
she drove me to stadium anyway.

at the stadium,
met natasha.
she ask me help her buy drinks.
THE QUEUE WAS REALLY LONG.
this primary school kid keeps putting his handss into my pocket.
i glared at him.
then he backked off.
kids these days.
so natasha was warming up to me.
we were chattin amidst pushing and shoving and the ffff words keep coming out of her.
i keep reminding that she's a lady(:
lol.
then we cut queue.

oh well,
we sort of part ways after i got her drinks.
sums up how girls make use of stupid ppl like me.
lol.

nothing much to proclaim.
i might try to call kimberley up.
form kids central one you know?
that one?
shes damn pretty and she gave me her number and i dunno what to do.

though i say so much.
i still miss her.
she's had another guy in her head definately.
screw me man.

i give my hand to you with all my heart.
i cant wait to live my life with you i cant wait to start.


soccer today was dang man.
warded ytd for low blood count,
soccer today.
later.
and so on.
steady bo?
lol.
diff la
hahah!

still moody.
cant get over her no matter what.
no choice lah.
least i'm getting better.
no pills no smoke.
though i need it really bad.

the sing fest tickets came.
the one i'm suppsoed to go with her.
$240 altogether eh.
how ah?
die.

the key chains, name tags.
all still here.
everyday see,
sad case.

i'm seriously not ever to church.
mayb go but not for mass.
blasphem and die.
i dunno it's cos of you.
or jus me.

IMAJERK.ICANNOTMAKEYOUHAPPY.IHOPEISTAYLIKETHISFOREVER.NVHAPPY.

i now hate myself to ever loving you.